It's Been Awhile

I'm a mess. I don't usually have so many crushes (or possibly not crushes) at once. It's like I can't control my God damn emotions! Everything's spinning out of control and I'm not sure how to stop it. Anna cheated on her boyfriend and lied to me numerous times, thus making me look like a complete and utter idiot every time I defended her, which was more than enough times! Her boyfriend still wanted to be with her, but she broke up with him anyway and started dating the guy that she cheated with, then he "Got too mushy" after THREE DAYS so she broke up with him. While everything was going on, she flirted openly with about five guys, including the ones she 'dated'. This girl is even more crazy than I am! So I told her that I can't be her best friend any longer because of all the lies. It's one thing to cheat, but then lie to her best friend about it all, after what I've been through with my dad. Then Paul (her first boyfriend that she cheated on) started to show a growing interest in me, and so did this other guy Chantz. I told Anna about it and she said that that was what they did with everyone, INCLUDING HER. In other words, she got jealous and pretended that no one can EVER like and/or flirt with me because they just do that with everyone... UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't even know anymore... I'm so confused : (. Always mixed-up,
Lexi Bennett