A Day In The Life Of Another Angst-Ridden Teenager: Not A Wink

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Not A Wink

I've never been this confused about something before. Anna didn't text me at all today, so I don't know if she's mad at me or something. Usually, I'm the one to mend fences because it's me that has a problem with her. I don't even know anymore. Last night I didn't sleep at all. Not a wink. I don't know if I was anxious or worried, but I didn't feel tired at all. Is that a sign my problems are much deeper than my friend falling apart? In sixth and the beginning of seventh grade I went to a counseler. That would certainly help a bit. I'm in need of guidance. Until next time,

A Still Terribly Confused Lexi Bennett

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The Culprit

All year long we laughed at them.
We would watch it, the mayhem.
Was I what held you together?
What helped you, as you hung by a tether?
You chose to join them, when I left.
But I can hardly accuse them of theft.
No, you weren't mine, but I thought you were above it.
We both agreed to be different, but you were the culprit:

Of lying and treachery,
following while I bury
this heart that has broken,
split because of this burden.
I've sat back and watched you,
I tried and tried not to
take control of your life and make sure you did right.
Maybe I should've, at least on that night.

Now, you're spinning.
Your new friends say you're winning,
The prize they call family;
You had that with me.
I have a good heart,
but you were bad from the start.
I feel stupid and cheated.
Don't worry; this won't be repeated.

I Don't Know How to Look at You

Three years
You call me 'best friend'
for three years.

My trust
You will always abuse
my trust.

I'm gone
You choose to fall apart when
I'm gone.

Helped you
I would've
helped you

If you'd asked.
You didn't even ask.
And now,
I don't know how to look at you.

Crazy, Angst-Ridden Teenager

Hey, girl, what's the problem?
Why you feelin' down?
I'll do all I can
to flip that frown.

All of a sudden, you're so attached.
Are you up to something I won't like?
Wait a second,
isn't that your third strike?

I'm not just some crazy, angst-ridden teenager
Not someone you can walk all over.
You thought I'd let this go on forever?
You thought wrong.

What kind of best friend
let's me cry?
This doesn't have to end,
I just need to know why.

Why do you ignore me?
Because as soon as you're in need,
I'd swim across the sea
with lightning speed.

I'm not just some crazy, angst-ridden teenager.
Not someone you can walk all over.
You thought I'd let this go on forever?
You thought wrong.

As soon as I'm gone
the curtains are drawn.
I don't get to be in on
all of your secrets.

You're with new friends.
Our relationship ends,
because of the trends
all these people have started?

I'm not just some crazy, angst-ridden teenager.
Not someone you can walk all over.
You thought I'd let this go on forever?
You thought wrong.

I'm standing up for myself,
Picking my feelings up off of this shelf.
They've been there too long.
Now it all seems wrong.
Why do I cry?
But I comfort you?
You won't even try,
you have no clue.
I know every feeling
filling your head.
You'd probably care less
If I just dropped dead.
But hey, you listen now.
And you listen good.

I'm not just some crazy, angst-ridden teenager.
Not someone you can walk all over.
You thought I'd let this go on forever?
You thought wrong.
AND I'M DONE.

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Thursday, July 29, 2010

Not A Wink

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